Am I there yet?


Sometimes, my life feels like a super drama. Pick a daytime soap and drop me in. Ha! There might even be an evil twin who was abducted by aliens…you never know. In real life, I have it good. No, I have it better than most. Is it ideal? Maybe not, but seriously, who’s is? And isn’t one’s ideal, another’s discontent?

The masks we wear everyday get old and tired. We hide behind makeup, smiles and curtain of emotional shields hoping it will protects us from what scares us. But it’s our own insecurity that we can’t face head on. Looking for reassurance, acceptance and approval.

We define ourselves by our environment and circumstances. But when we create the identity lead by our heart and passion, our true self is realized. Am I there yet? No. Will I get there? I hope so.

As my day come to a close, I reflect on how I spent my hours and minutes that get me to the midnight lights out for the sleep that had been calling for me. Being a mom, wife, grand mother and a studio assistant keeps me busy.  And on occasion, I am reminded that I’m a potter too. The day is done, but I am acutely aware that too many things are left undone.

Maybe tomorrow I will get the slurry of clay between my fingers and feel a sense of accomplishment and pride in my hearts passion.

Because today, I am left undone.

Soda Fired Teapot, March '16
Soda Fired Teapot, February ’16

Let’s finish on a positive note…

I am pleased to announce that I have been accepted in to Two exhibitions that open next month:

– Purposeful Pottery presented by Blue Line Arts at the WestPark Workshop Gallery, 405 Vernon St. #100, Roseville, CA
Dates: April 16 – May 14, 2016
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Sun City Lincoln Hills Exhibition in conjunction with America’s ClayFestIV at Orchard Creek Lodge, 965 Orchard Creek Lane, Lincoln, CA
Dates: April 16 – May 14, 2016
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Humble Pie…best served on a shino tray!


Last night, I applied to and was juried to be recognized into the prestigious group of exhibiting members of ACGA—Association of Clay and Glass Artists of California.

I thought I had been proud of my work, confident of my artistry and craftsmanship, but the level of vulnerability of this challenge made me question my purpose and passion. Am I as good as I think I am, good as I’ve been told by my family and friends? Does my work speak to my individuality? Does my display show lack of maturity as an artist? Et cetera et cetera.

I arrived at Fort Mason Center Building C at 4:15 and at 5pm, after months of preparation—from making new pieces to forcing everyone close to me to judge my work and display to the point of exhaustion—I rolled my handy-dandy cart of 1 Tupperware bin of work, one shelf riser and black table-cloth into a white-walled room lit only with fluorescent overhead lighting. Staked out a corner space where I can place a 3′ x 6′ table on an angle and started setting up…took all of 20 minutes, kind of anti-climatic, really. Another 20 minutes of fidgeting the pieces an 1/8th of an inch in all direction, I called it “the best I can do today.”

There were 13 other hopeful clay and glass artists waiting for the judging to begin. There were 6 jurors, both clay and glass professionals, 1 moderator and 1 recorder (oh, what I would have given to be a fly on the wall!). We waited in another room, away from nosy and curious artists, mingling nervously. Some candidates were already dismissive with comments like, “if I don’t get in/if they don’t like my work, I’m not bothering to try again” and “I heard people have to try several times to get in”. Others seem highly confident, boasting of all of their sales and gallery accomplishments. Me, I was just grateful that in 3 hours time, I can pack up and pat myself on the back of my accomplishment in having challenged myself and presented work worth the critique of other professionals.

Jurors walked in at 7pm and walked out at 8:30pm. What does it mean when they finished so fast? Should we be concerned? Many wondered and worried. I packed up and 15 minutes later, I drove out of the parking lot. My fear of rejection didn’t get the best of me and regardless of the outcome, I am humbled by the process and glad to have experienced it.

And yes, if I don’t get accepted this time, I will learn and try, try again.

Thanks goes to (in no specific order): Lance, Mira, Dan, Linda, Peggy, Lynn, Julia, Thomas, Liz, Anne and Higher Fire Staff.

In goes mud, out comes gold!

High gloss and luster shino glaze developed by Higher Fire Clayspace and Gallery in San Jose.


In my quest for a new kiln/studio—my home studio is now a Kiln-free zone ordered by my landlord…long story and saga still unfolding—I have made myself at home in San Jose at Higher Fire Clay Space and Gallery. And with it two giant gas kilns and a very consistent reduction firings by equally competent studio managers and instructors.

So, I now have a new series of works using a combination of Lehman’s Shino, Higher Fire Gold Shino and a dusting of Blue Celadon glazes. But with so many other beautiful glazes to choose from, I will have to continue to explore the many colors and combinations!

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HF Gold Shino in and out. Very light application of Celadon. Still got a good showing of carbon trapping, The trays got over warped for my liking, out of 7, I got 3 good ones. These tumblers are a good size for tea and everyday water/juice cups.

And yes, the GOLD!
Dan Dermer, studio owner/potter, has formulated a special shino glaze recipe that puts gold on pots! Super glossy and stable with rich gold and beautiful carbon trapping where the dusting of celadon is heavier.

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This teapot is lined with Temoku and Lehman’s Shino out…again with a dusting of Blue Celadon. Using Donegal from East Bay Clay. Bisque shows a pink blush and fires to brown in reduction.
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Except for the teapot, all HF Gold Shino. Very glossy and lots of luster to the finish. Needs heavier Celadon application for the carbon trapping, not sure I am completely sold on the intentional look of the carbon showings.
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This teapot is a good balance between the HF Gold Shino and Celadon. Still super luster on the handle and near the spout.

Also getting ready for the San Carlos Art and Wine Faire next weekend, and then I attempt to jury into ACGA-American Clay and Glass Artists…nervous about this one. Once accepted, it’s a live long membership (so long as you pay your dues!). Wish me luck.